WWE Raw 10/17/16 Review: Goldberg Returns

 

Denver, Colorado was the host of tonight’s Raw and I felt sorry for them, minus Goldberg, Seth Rollins, KO and Y2J, the rest was hogwash…we didn’t even see Sasha or Charlotte wrestle, just interviews! Raw is a Drama and Smackdown is wrestling…end of! I live in the UK and rarely stay up late enough to watch this live, I record it and fast forward the many many adverts! Raw is not worth staying up most of the night to be fair!

Let’s get the big thing out of the way first, Goldberg! For the first time in 12 years, we stood witness to the return of WCW’s greatest champion to a WWE ring and it was cool to witness that entrance again, ok so he didn’t have the officers lead him out but we couldn’t get everything! Bill Goldberg emerges and people chant his name, the loudest the crowd was all night! It was great and I’m glad Goldberg was so well received and as we all knew would happen, he accepts Brock Lesnar’s challenge for a match in the near future. I wanted Ryback chants just for the hell of it! You know because they always chanted Goldberg at Ryback, why not have a laugh and do the same to Goldberg? Probably because fans like Goldberg and found Ryback to be boring and not really going anywhere…just a thought?

He has one more spear in him, one more ass kicking! One more jackhammer in him to take on the beast! He wants to let his son watch him fight in the ring and I admire that…it will be a headlining match that will be better than the 1st encounter in 2004 but to be fair, that won’t be hard to do really, even if Goldberg hasn’t really wrestled in 12 years! It would have to be a shambles to be worse….a massive shambles!

Next week, we see Brock Lesnar respond on Raw which will be good as well and it’s nice to see that stars of the past are better at putting over a big match than the current batch that we have…How are part timers made to look so much better than a Kevin Owens, Seth Rollins or Roman Reigns? After nearly 3 hours we got to Goldberg and it was a tough ask to wait so long to be honest! From decent to awful along the way, you realise how bad WWE and it’s roster is compared to say 10 years ago! We rely on stars of the past to return often and why is that? Doesn’t WWE rely on it’s current stars for drawing power, to be able to fill the arenas and stadiums, sell merchandise etc?  They should do!

Moving on to today’s generation of superstars, Kevin Owens is the top dog but a apart of me wishes that Finn Balor had never gotten injured and would be still our champion right now! KO bores me as Universal Champion and it pains me to say this…I love KO, I have supported this superstar in NXT, and when he debuted on Raw by taking out John Cena, yet now as he stands atop of Raw’s mountain, I find myself not caring what he does at all! A feud with Seth Rollins that has gone nowhere, it is beyond boring! They are both great athletes by my god, the matches aren’t that impressive…heck, so far, face Seth Rollins is putting me to sleep…he’s doing what Roman Reigns did last year with the little insults that are cheesy as anything…only difference is people enjoy this, unlike with Roman Reigns. I love Seth Rollins and I am so mad at Raw for making me not care about either guy! Chris Jericho is the best thing about this feud, he gets all the chants when all three are in the ring because he’s the most entertaining one! Seth just feels dry, his humor isn’t that good and KO just moans about absolutely everything which is his character but it’s not helping the show at all!

Sparklecrotch?!-2016 Tater Tots-2015

The only reason Rollins is even in this feud is because he was Raw’s 1st pick, he’s the man and who else would fit the bill….Roman Reigns is facing Rusev, Finn Balor is out and Y2J is KO’S’Best Friend’ so Seth is the only one who can face KO on Raw…doesn’t that just sum up Raw…only one credible challenger for KO…what about after Hell In A Cell? Who else is credible to take on Kevin Owens right now who isn’t busy in another feud…Brock Lesnar…Goldberg?

Triple H has still not appeared ever since he stabbed Rollins in the back and chose Owens to be the top guy…hasn’t helped the storyline and the obvious twist that Stephanie knew all along etc I guess the fact that HHH and Stephanie pretty much choose the champion hurts Raw in a big way because it’s been like this for nearly 4 years…4 F%$%&&G years of Authority…it’s still on…HHH will appear again and all will be revealed as they head to Wrestlemania where Rollins fights the Game…so easy to see it!

Seth Rollins took on Chris Jericho again in the show’s opener and it was a decent match, enjoyable to watch, nothing really wrong with the match,especially since Y2J told KO to stay in the back for the match, he had a point to prove but did his ‘best friend’ listen….nope, he comes out and pretty much costs Jericho the match! Paints KO as a coward who uses Jericho as a shield to avoid Rollins at all costs! It does make me feel bad for Jericho although he is putting over the future talents.

Kevin Owens could be written to be that arrogant, cocky champion that we saw against Cena, yet he’s mostly in a suit every week, moaning for twenty minutes about Mick Foley…boring, get in the ring and FIGHT! I hate it when a champion does not fight but just does promos week in and week out….speaking of promos, does every single Raw have to start with a promo?! Smackdown often has a match first, yet Raw has to have Stephanie McMahon/Mick Foley, Roman Reigns or Kevin Owens start off with a promo! Am I watching Wrestling or a Drama?!

The Women’s Revolution….consisting of 3 Women?! Why isn’t this so called revolution taking place on Smackdown Live? At least they use of all the women they have…where are all the other Raw Women Wrestlers at? Here are all the Raw Women Wrestlers

• Sasha Banks
• Charlotte
• Bayley
• Dana Brooke
• Nia Jax
• Alica Fox 
• Emma (soon to be Emmalina) 
• Lana (doesn’t wrestle)
• Paige (suspended) 
• Summer Rae
• Tamina 

Why do we only see four of them? Admittedly some are out of action but how can you build hype for this division? Oh, I know have them inside the Hell in a Cell! I hated this idea and still do because why does it need the Cell? Give me one good reason, other than ‘first time’ do we need Sasha and Charlotte to fight inside the Cell? It screams desperation to me because Raw has been awful in 2016 and I thought they couldn’t get worse than 2015! How wrong was I?

We saw two interviews by Lita to ask Charlotte and Sasha Banks about Hell In A Cell and both of them made me annoyed, because they both acted like the Cell didn’t even matter, they weren’t intimidated or afraid of Satan’s Structure, Charlotte did her usual routine that she was the greatest off all time, Woman or Man…wonder what her Father thought of that? I liked it but it didn’t add to the Cell concept…Sasha never impresses me on the mic and she made it worse by not being afraid of the Cell…why does WWE need to convince us so much that neither woman is afraid of the Cell yet it’s perfectly fine for Triple H, Mick Foley, Brock Lesnar to admit that they were afraid? And I wonder why do we have this match in the first place if the Cell isn’t doing it’s job? I don’t care if it’s a man or woman who steps inside that cell, if it makes no sense, It shouldn’t happen at all!

And what about after Hell In A Cell? Who will either woman face? Bayley? Nia Jax, they are the only two credible challenges available…Dana Brooke…sod off…she botches everything and she had no business beating Bayley, it will do nothing because no one can stand Dana Brooke at all. I love the Women in WWE, Sasha, Charlotte, Bayley, Becky Lynch are leading lights that can do something amazing in removing that horrible era of the Divas! Yet right now, they aren’t using them properly…they are using these women in a horrible Women’s Revolution idea to make them relevant when it isn’t needed at all, you just need good writers for them….great storylines is all you need and the Women will easily be over! Wasn’t the Women’s Revolution started because of other Women Athletes in other sports doing well? They don’t need a Revolution and they are well respected for what they do…WWE…use less than half of their women and only a couple are well received…great revolution!

Did Trish or Lita need such gimmicks to get over…No?! Yet stars that can surpass them someday need a Revolution to get over because WWE creative isn’t on Par with NXT’S Creative? I want the Women to succeed but using the Cell just for the sake of it is a bad move, I mean I don’t expect any moonsaults off the cell…I don’t even see the Cell barely being used to be honest…so why bother? Last year, Seth Rollins vs Kane wasn’t inside Hell In A Cell because it didn’t need to be, it had a story but the Cell was not needed..WWE has just forgotten what the Cell is really all about, because it’s a PPV! any match can be in it now…it’s a shame if you ask me.

Build up Nia Jax, have her destroy the winner after the match!, build up Emmalina…shudder and give Sasha, Charlotte and Bayley opponents and build up for Wrestlemania where we need Sasha vs Bayley for the Championship! Move Charlotte over to Smackdown and have her feud with Becky Lynch maybe, two great Wrestlemania Matches right there…no gimmicks, just a great story and WRESTLING!

As for Brawn Strowman…we all know where this will probably lead too….he wants strong competition, well come January…Big Show is meant to come back….I shudder at the mere thought of this match up…yet Big Show has a toilet break type of match at Wrestlemania…Shaq…let’s all be strong people. Strowman destroys 3 nobodies and demands competition and is about to head to the back when the worst moment of the night for me happens…Sami Zayn appears! A stupid decision because I don’t want another David vs Golliath! Khali vs Mysterio vibe all over it!

Why oh why are WWE going to feed Sami Zayn to Brawn Strowman? A talent as great as Sami Zayn should be feuding for a mid card championship at the very least, not being used to push a superstar that no one could care about! If we see this match at Hell In A Cell or a future episode of Raw, I shudder to see what happens to Zayn, I want more for him, he can be a future champion, easily…over with fans and putting on classics for years to come. It just shows to me that WWE does not know what to do with him! No feud for the United States Championship or another match with Kevin Owens for the Universal Championship! Easily done, KO vs Sami Zayn for the Universal Championship would be awesome. Same can be said about Neville here, he’s being jobbed to Bo Dallas?! BO DALLAS! WTF?! A member of the former group known as Social Outcasts goes over Neville!

Make Neville and Sami Zayn a Tag Team, simple as! Have them challenge the New Day for the Tag Team Championships! Speaking of New Day, they take on Cesaro and Sheamus at Hell In A Cell and for me, I hate the idea and I’ll tell you why, if Cesaro and Sheamus lose, they have no reason to remain a Tag Team and if they win, New Day won’t break Demolition’s record. The New Day need to lose the belts because it gets boring and stale. No idea what the future of the Tag Team division on Raw is but I feel that New Day’s reign is hurting the other teams too much, look at Gallows and Anderson!

Will Enzo and Cass have a reign? 3 Good teams and a possible 4th one if Sheamus and Cesaro stay as a team….highly doubt that though, Cesaro needs to be on Smackdown and shine as the star that we all know he is! But to save this division, New Day must first lose the tittles and give someone else a turn…all gimmicks get old and they are getting close to that now.

Golden Truth and Mark Henry face the Shining Stars and Titus O Neil and I really can’t think of much to say about this match…something about Rolexes and I’ll just say…World Strongest Slam, end of match! I feel bad for Mark Henry for being in this match but I know he’s good friends with Titus…I know they are great guys but their WWE Characters are embarrassing…WWE, please use Titus in a much better role, he can be a star if you build him up properly.

All tonight’s Raw told me was that the WWE Draft was a massive mistake! Raw has suffered so much, it’s laughable and I am glad that I don’t stay up so late to watch this rubbish, I record it and watch it during the day, I value my sleep too much to watch this show… Forget making Darren Young great…We need Raw to be great again!

Total score- 2/10 (Extremely Poor)

The Blackout!!!

Just minding my own business as you do, playing Skyrim on my PC when all of a sudden, out of the blue, the house descends into utter darkness, all power gone…just like that…couldn’t see a thing! First thing I do is make sure that Emma is alright which she was but we couldn’t see each other, only hear…a strange feeling, not being able to see another person when they are right in front of you!

The picture isn’t meant to be blank like it is…it’s was taken when I was stood in my hallway! I was looking at my front door and I can’t see a thing, can you? The reason it was so dark was simple, our house wasn’t the only one that had lost power…every house in the neighborhood and in fact, most of the town had lost power, it was crazy! Using phones and torches for light, we would go and check on our neighbors, many of them are elderly so we needed to make sure they hadn’t fallen or were stuck, thankfully…all were alright!

Never seen so many candles brought out and used in such a long time, like going back to the 90’s when I last remember seeing such a thing! Yet everyone’s houses were lit up with candlelight as others were wandering the streets, trying to make sense of what had just happened, no one saw it coming but then again, a power outage is usually like that!  I used to read stuff about one day in the future, a massive power outage would actually happen and would last for a long time, well for me an hour was more than enough! weeks or even months…people would freak out beyond normality and life itself would be dramatically changed, if electricity is taken away…I mean the majority of household items are electrical…unless you have a gas cooker, that is!

I’m just glad the power came back on! Thankfully! Scary though…Have a good night!

Jose Mourinho Sacked!

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Jose Mourinho has once again been sacked by Chelsea FC! The best manager has been sent packing after a horrendous few months that have left Chelsea only one point above the Relegation Zone! He has also reportedly refused the 40 million compensation he was due out of respect for the club! Chelsea are without a manager before the weekend’s game with Sunderland.

I finished a shift at work and came home and saw all over the place this news and I just couldn’t believe what I was reading…I heard rumors of it possibly happening…but I never imagined Chelsea would actually do it…I know things haven’t been great lately but I always expected him to turn it around…I’m an Arsenal fan and this news does not bring me joy….Despite the rivalry and the words exchanged by Mourinho to my club…I always respected the man because he was good, he was one of the greatest managers of all time, only a fool would think otherwise…PSG or Madrid I think his next destination will be…doubt it would be Manchester United but it would be interesting

How do Chelsea fans feel about this??? Well have a look at his video and decide for yourself!

Personally, I think it’s a big call for Chelsea to make, because he has been there best manager and this is his 2nd spell at Chelsea…I doubt a 3rd will happen…what’s next for Chelsea and is this a fair call…what about the players that didn’t give their all for the club? Is there more to the story that we have been told…more background stories as to why players have suddenly switched off since last season…well May to be fair!

This is an opinion of someone who isn’t a Chelsea Fan. via the Sun 

And of course, someone was going to have fun with this!

But regardless to how you feel about Jose Mourinho, he was a good manager and a damn entertaining one as well, with what he says and does weekly, made football more entertaining and talk able! He was successful, up to the 2nd part of this year…whether he lost the dressing room, I don’t know but a lot of those players need to go before Chelsea can recover and save themselves but if we see Chelsea suddenly bounce up the table before any new players come in…I think we’ll know what has happened at this club!

Goodbye Jose Mourinho, thanks for the memories.

Should Mourinho Be Sacked?

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Big talking point is whether current Chelsea FC Manager Jose Mourinho should be kept on or whether he should be let go and let someone else comes in and hopefully saves the team from a very unlikely relegation battle…why should I as a football fan expect Chelsea to let themselves stay in the position they are in now…for much longer…at the end of the day, the cost of relegation is far worse and humiliating than it would be to admit that Jose Mourinho has had his day with Chelsea, time to move on! He is a great manager, don’t get me wrong but if the players are not in favor of him anymore then you don’t stand a chance in hell of doing well! That won’t be a popular opinion with many Chelsea fans and other rival fans who find every loss Chelsea suffer hilarious because of all the cockiness, the cheating, the arrogance of Chelsea over the last few seasons so they feel like it’s Karma that Chelsea are suffering so much!

Mourinho is a great manager, one of the greatest the Premier League has ever had! Yet everyone has a hey day….the time comes when it just doesn’t work anymore and for Chelsea, it looks like it’s happening! Just an opinion but to be one point above the Relegation Zone is disgusting…players are not performing and quite possibly, feigning injuries…some suggest Eden Hazard faked to get off the pitch against Leicester!  If so, then he should go because he will just cause Chelsea problems on the pitch….god knows Costa needs an attitude adjustment…I thought Suarez was bad…I’d happily have him back over Costa…any day! Fabregas….I never thought I’d be happy Chelsea got him over us….I remember being angry about that, now I’m relieved…If he was at Arsenal and he did that…I’d want him gone… and Fabregas…I found it funny how YOU of all players say that Chelsea Stars need to earn their wages and call themselves stars….found it funny, if you know what I mean…Ivanovic??? Enough said about him but it’s clear why Chelsea are suffering when it sounds like most of the squad is under performing….Terry is just getting on in years….still delivers…mostly  WHY DID YOU SIGN FALCAO?!

Chelsea have great players including Willian…Loftus-Cheek, Zouma, Remy…all good guys who are future stars…keep hold of them Chelsea and give them more playing time….they could actually get you some points because they look like they will put more effort into their game than most of your current squad! I would suggest buying a few players in January but be prepared to pay the extra mile for them! Say what you want, you can either believe that Chelsea will easily get a top 6 spot, just like that….or you could think that there is a crisis at Chelsea that appears to be at the heart of the team and it’s manager and staff! Chelsea will not just simply return to winning ways with the current squad! If it was so easy to do that, their wouldn’t be a crisis on right now!

Chelsea play Sunderland, Watford and Man United before the year draws out and I think Chelsea can get a result or two in these games…I actually think Watford are their toughest opponents out of those three teams…unless Man United suddenly wake up! Point is…these three games could decide Chelsea’s future! I feel like Chelsea are holding out as long as they can with Mourinho…possibly to see if he can turn it around or they come to realise that they have to let him go and save the club from a nightmare situation…anyone fancy seeing Chelsea vs Huddersfield next season? The championship fans look on in anticipation of an away trip to Stamford Bridge!

The January transfer window is coming up but that does not mean it will be a successful month for Chelsea for one simple reason…clubs will be aware that Chelsea want to buy and they will just increase the price and why shouldn’t they try and squeeze an extra 10 million for a player? Chelsea are desperate to stop this embarrassing run in the Premier League this season…16th place and 1 point above the Relegation Zone! Humiliating yet Chelsea fans continue to put their faith in Mourinho which is admirable! Yet…how much longer can fans really stay blind to what everyone else can see…you are 16th! Not 6th….not 4th and certainly not 1st! League…out of the question…top 4…unlikely….Champions League….Miracles have happened….Relegation…? At the present time….I have no idea and can you blame me…at the start of the season, having Chelsea be in the bottom part of the table by Christmas, I’d have laughed at you and assumed you’d taken some drugs! So I can’t rule out relegation for them….I still don’t think it will happen though because unless Mourinho turns things around soon, he should be gone! If Arsenal were in the same position…I’d want Wenger to go…if it meant change and hopefully, wins!

How Do I Feel To Have Autism

I have been asked this before, how do I feel that I have Autism? Well as easy as it is to have that question asked because it comes around from time to time. Seriously, I have no idea how I would answer that question apart from saying

‘It’s ok…I guess’

Well, what am I supposed to say to this? That it’s the greatest thing in the world to have? I doubt many would say that really because along with pretty much anything else you can have in this world, it comes with it’s bad points, the ones that make you hate some days sometimes and with Autism, I’m talking about

• Socializing
• Having Friends
• Living a Normal Life
• Facial Expressions
• Confidence
• Understanding Emotions

Some of those of ones that many people believe someone with Autism won’t be able to do but I’ll leave that up to you which they actually are! However, much to what people hear online about Autism, most of it doesn’t speak for every single person with Autism! We are all different in a certain way, but I could tell a brick wall that and it would get it before some people would! I can’t tell every single person that wonders about my Autism in great detail or I’ll be doing it until all my hairs are grey or worse, I’m bald! And lord help me if that happens, it’s cold enough as it is up North and with no hair, it’d be so much worse! No thank you so don’t make me give you an hour description of the Autism that I have!

But how do I feel about my Autism? Well I guess It doesn’t actually matter what I think about it because I can’t do anything about it…I will have my Autism for the rest of my life and I don’t have a choice but to deal with it, so I live my life every single day with occasional down moments where I can worry about everything, always think I’m alone and often avoid looking people in the eyes as much as I can because…well the eyes intimidate me, it’s almost as if people are trying to look right into me when they look at me and I don’t like that at all! I feel almost as if it’s a invasion of my privacy which I know sounds silly but I can’t help but feel that!

As for friends, I have them…no doubt about it but I still feel lonely time from time and I’ll never fully understand why, maybe I’m a clingy individual who needs companionship all the time or I feel lonely? I don’t know, maybe that’s something I’ll come to understand as I get older and enter married life and parenthood!

I live my life, I go to work, I spend time with friends and my fiance, I go on holidays every year and I feel like I enjoy my life because it sounds pretty normal! So why do I feel like my life will feel slow, empty and unfulfilled which is horrible to think and say but when you can’t help but feel like that, it’s difficult to not say something about it!  Why is that, because I have an answer for everything and I can’t leave something unfinished! Not in a million years could I ever think to do that, not in me!

I’m someone who has achieved quite a bit but still feels like he was ridiculed and looked down upon the entire way which had an effect on my confidence because I always felt like I wasn’t like everyone else…I was different but not for the right reasons, I wasn’t different because I was unique or anything like that…I was a quiet individual who at times enjoyed keeping to himself, someone who liked having the freedom to do what he wanted for once and didn’t feel pressured into anything that he didn’t want to do, it was like a sense of freedom that I had dreamed about for so long, only to realise sadly that it wasn’t as great as I had imagined it to be!

I don’t want to sound like I moan about my life, I enjoy my life, very much in fact! But don’t you ever feel like you could do so much more? Go the extra mile and achieve what you could only once dream off? Why does it only have to stay a dream? If you can dream it, you can do it! Why not? If you can conjure up the thought in your head, it should be able to become a reality someday! That’s how I feel anyway and in truth, that is also how I feel about my Autism, I can do anything with it…sure I’ll feel nervous doing it but so what? I’d rather feel something as I go through life and achieve what many said i’d never be able to do than feel nothing, sad and depressed because I was given a label in my teens! Life is what you make of it, what you decide to do with it and I am getting married soon, I’m going to become a parent and I am using my life to be happy! So my Autism is something that can be whatever I want it to be, It motivates me to try harder, to go that extra step and never accept average, aim higher if you can and get the most out of life, then one day I can look back and feel happy that it was all down to that decision I made as a 16 yr old to take over my own destiny and be in charge of my own decisions!

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Autism And Your Brain

Hey guys, It’s Your DailyPickMeUp and once again, where I live…it is quite windy, little annoying to be honest because you put extra layers on and still get cold! Silly weather but anyway! Today’s blog is all about your Brain and why not, it’s at the center of most decision making that we all do…unless you follow your heart instead of your head which I bet many will do!

Ever wonder if we have an off switch for feeling worried? I wish we did have one sometimes because it would be cool to just relax and feel happier from time to time if something has happened in my life, I mean stuff happens to everyone and we all have to go through, I just tend to want to talk about it and share my stories and opinions with as many people as I can.

All of my life, I have felt like a tiny little voice in my head tells me what to do and no, I’m not crazy, it’s called your imagination but for me, it feels like a real person, my thoughts whenever I worry or upset about something that has happened in my life, it’s is almost as if I am having a conversation with my head as to why I over worry or what I should do which most of the time, my head can never come up with a decent solution, only that it wants to hide and hope that everything will be ok in the end which most of the time it is . By the way, me thinking that a little voice is in my head doesn’t make me crazy…surely 😛

The Brain is vital for me when I think about my Autism because that’s where I assume it actually is…that little invisible whatyoucallit inside my head that no one can see but it’s there. My thoughts and actions all start off from my brain and it seems like it’s up to my brain as to what course of action I will take! I tend to over worry about so much, it’s unreal and it can tire me out because it takes up most of my priorities throughout the day, worrying about bad things happening and if it’s a good thing, whether it’s too good to actually be true!

I know that I do this and that my Brain is the control center with these little guys and gals controlling it all

Yet for something that I never see, it has such a massive impact on my life! Funny that but then again, if I could see my brain, I would be very worried about it…Emotions and thought thinking are things we do all day, every day and for me…it’s tricky whereas it could be easier for others or even trickier as well, I’m not assuming that I suffer from this more or less than anyone else but I can’t be bothered to ask 7 billion other people how they deal with thoughts or emotions.

So with the Brain being at the forefront of virtually everything that we say or do, how are we meant to feel when others who aren’t all full of knowledge for Autism…make snide remarks about someone like me not being able to feel or express properly, as in not make such a scene about it or preferring my own personal space from time to time and if I cannot, my brain will worry and I’ll panic! Oh the joys of being able to easily calm down in times of stress, Something I’ve never said with confidence before or ever! 

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The Impact Inside Out Had On Me

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Good day everyone, it’s your DailyPickMeUp! and today I am going to be talking about one of my favorite movies of all time, Inside Out! This movie really speaks to me because I have Autism and I always feel like I don’t always know how to express my emotions all of the time or to a point that others would consider ‘normal’ and what I mean by that is…well, I have been called an emotionless robot by a few people in the past before…wasn’t really pleasant but what can you do?

This movie explores certain emotions inside the head of a child but we also see inside the heads of adults as well throughout the movie but these, listed bellow are the ones the movie focuses on.

• Joy
• Sadness
• Anger
• Fear
• Disgust

I feel like this movie had a great impact on me, I connected with it’s messages because it felt ok to cry, it felt ok to feel sad or angry, happy or disgusted! Why be afraid of how others will look at you if you get a little emotional? I decided that It didn’t matter if someone tried to give me a hard time if I felt upset over something because I was only expressing an emotion and that was perfectly ok! However, I felt a little nervous about it all at first, to suddenly feel like years of hiding away and sounding so serious all the time was the norm for me and I wanted to stay there but I was getting tired of people always saying how ‘serious’ I was all the time, how I never really expressed any kind of emotion which hurt because I could and I did, just not enough to be considered acceptable I guess…that’s only my opinion though…many others might feel different and that’s ok so no one get on their high horse, thinking that I am speaking for everyone with Autism because I’m not…it’s more like I’m sharing an experience with you!

As for characters in this film, Anger is my favorite and I don’t know why that is, he made me laugh more than anyone else in the movie and Sadness really annoyed me for the majority of the movie!  All she did at the start was touch the orbs and infect them with sadness, but then again, there wouldn’t have been a long movie otherwise! Joy was…too happy for me although she appeared quite paranoid and like a dictator, afraid to let anything other than happiness enter Riley’s life…well Anger and Disgust seemed to do fine…just no sadness aloud! Wait? So Riley could throw a tantrum as much as she wanted, scream and shout but it was bad if she ever cried? Ok then…well there had to be an issue somewhere but you would think that all the emotions would work together, not single out sadness…I mean…isn’t that bullying? Stand in your circle Sadness!

Finally, we have the other two, such as Disgust…why was she even there, had the least to contribute out of all of the other emotions! More of a background character if you ask me, I didn’t really learn anything from her….apart from Broccoli being disgusting…would have made more sense if she was reading a negative YouTube or Facebook comment, I get Fear, that made sense and was perfect because…well he was terrified of most things going wrong, that made sense!

However, I felt like all of the emotions were….too strong, overloading really because it became partly cringe worthy at times! I don’t know but I felt they were all over the top at times, especially Joy but that’s because they don’t know how to feel anything else but they discover that they can during the course of the film, I mean we see Joy cry and Sadness smile which speaks volumes…no one is an emotionless robot! We all feel these emotions, each and every single human being and animal feels emotional and don’t ever forget that because right now, someone is smiling, someone feels sad, someone is feeling angry, scared and someone will be disgusted!

Everyone seems to think sometimes with me that I can’t express my emotions confidently because of my Autism and I never understand what leads them to that conclusion, I mean I’ll admit because I struggle to socialise with people that some might think I can’t communicate with them…either that or it’s because I prefer to avoid eye contact and can’t read people’s face to see what emotions they are doing…oh how I wish I could, would make this whole ‘life’ thing quite a bit easier for me…a lot actually.

Overall, I’ve said this before but this movie is great, a 10/10 for me because it had an impact on me and helped me change my way of thinking about my emotional state, I could be happy, angry and afraid and not feel bad or ashamed for it because everyone does it, maybe not all out in the open but they do it! It was a movie that made sense and was poetry to me, I could watch it again and again and never get tired of it! True that is because it was that good and it helps me understand happiness from another point of view, that feeling sad isn’t bad…it can be good, better to bottle it in and let this out!

I would recommend this to anyone really, great chance for kids to understand feelings and emotions, even a great film for adults as well because you don’t stop expressing feelings after you grow up, they stay with you until the day you leave this earth so this film is for everyone and everyone should see it! Another golden nugget from Pixar!

My Upcoming Story About Autism

I’m going to write a story and it’s main character is going to have Autism! I feel like since I have Autism, I can get some aspects out of it into a character but not all as we know that everyone with Autism is different in their own way! Not every single aspect will be covered! I’ll get that out of the way now!  Why am I doing this? Because I’ve always wanted to give something like this a go to be honest and I think this one will just be for fun and I’ll see where it goes really because I think it will be fun to spend time writing various chapters and whatnot as the story progresses. I mean I think it can be good to write a story like this, not to just get what Autism is out there but that characters can be created, admired and loved by many, despite of what they have or don’t have.

From various experiences throughout my life and others I have read, heard or seen, mixed in with a little bit of fantasy as well because many stories are more fun that way, I think that it could be quite good and fun to read because it will get a little bit silly along the way but that’s ok because a story is meant to make you feel a whole load of emotions, to make you want to see what happens next as we follow the stories of the characters along the way.

I guess my goal in this little project is to have fun and make it all the way to the end, becoming better than I was when I began and to learn a bit along the way as well, I haven’t decided on a name as of yet but I know what the story will be about and up to a point what will happen but it should cover important points that are related to Autism such as

• Friendship
• The Way Of Thinking
• Socializing
• Confidence
• Emotions

Their are others but I could be here a while…Anyway, this story could go on for quite a while as the characters go through various situations from the start to get to there main objective by the end of the story, perhaps not all will make it to the end or maybe they will, who knows…I’m not giving anything about the plot away…no writer does that 😉 And no one likes spoilers anyway but I want to make it fun, climatic and keep people guessing what will happen next.

I’m excited to do this really, it’s a project that I can spend time on and have fun with and whatever happens with it, I’ll have enjoyed it regardless and will be happy that I at least gave it a go in the first place, even if it sucks! Always feel free to let me know what you think about it.

Each post should be a new chapter, probably 2,000 words a post I’m aiming for really but it could be more or it could be less, depends what’s happening in each chapter to whether I can keep it at that mark every single time because I can go on and on in this situation when I’m trying to describe something.

Chapter One will be out soon…once I’ve actually written it and had it looked at….have fun.

Autism And The Unknown

The unknown is always a little scary, something that can make you wonder and ponder why there are so many unanswered questions in the world! I have no idea why I have Autism for example, how it happens, am I the first one in my family to happen or is someone diagnosed, you can’t help but wonder because…everything happens for a reason, right? Well everyone wonders about something that has happened, whether it be in the present, the past or yet to happen!

Autism is a mystery in a way because there is so much to it and no one is the same with it, everyone who has it is somewhat different in a way but many people assume we are all the same…that’s a mystery in of itself because no matter how many times we tell people that Autism is a complicated matter and everyone who has it is different, it is like it goes in one ear and out the other!

I wonder why I can’t look people in the eyes…does it scare me? Sometimes I can but at times, for reasons I don’t always feel like I can explain…I can’t do it, I have to look away!  My fiance says the eyes are windows to the soul…am I afraid to look at a soul? Another wonder that I have no clue about is how people seem to make having friends so easily…whereas for some reason, I struggle continuously and I am ridiculed for it because it is mistaken for rudeness…why on Earth people come to that conclusion, I will never know, it’s a mystery, one that society may never be able to explain because if someone like me doesn’t understand it…how will someone without Autism be able to figure it out?

We always wonder about what we don’t know and try to find out what it is that we don’t know, whether that be something that we saw occur but do not know the reasons for it. It’s strange how so many unsolved mysteries or unknown events exist in our history but they are there…for a planet with 7 billion people on it, a lot of people get away with things so easily…o many cases have little to no trace of evidence!

For example, Jack The Ripper, one of the most famous killers of all time, for example went on a killing spree that is known famously worldwide and we don’t know who it was or why they chose to do what they did but it’s the mystery of it all that we enjoy, the what ifs and questions, theories we come up with that gets added to the story all the time! People do things that make people wonder because they have no idea why they would do something that others would consider to be strange, evil or other…I mean we all do it…I have Autism and I wonder about just about everything, one of my hobbies is the unknown…murder mysteries for example…I’ve written a few blogs about a couple of murder mysteries, called Hinterkaifeck give it a read and see how you feel afterwards…I don’t know why things like that fascinate me but they do, I can spend all day watching documentaries and YouTube videos about mysteries and trying to figure them out for myself!

Mysteries and the unknown come in many shapes and forms, whether it be Murders, actions of human beings…all the way to say….believing in Aliens….how many times do we get stories of people claiming to have been abducted by Aliens? How often do people claim to see Big Foot or the Loch Ness Monster! We will always wonder why other people do what they do but I guess the point I am making is I have Autism and people will question how I do things because I have something…. I have a label and growing up, everyone thought I was weird because  of it! yet in life, so many human beings in the past and the present do questionable actions, People kidnap, murder and steal, they do things that are outrageous and it;s understandable why we label them…but what have I done? I’m shy and it isn’t easy for me to make friends…why all the pointing world? We say and do things that no one can explain…Why is it because I have Autism that you expect me to do strange things that you can’t understand?  Is it so easy to give someone a label and assume they are strange to you?! Apparently so people, apparently so!

Autism And Friends

Friends, something that we should all have right? Well many people don’t have a single one and that sucks big time, you can have people who have grown up and sometimes even gone their entire life’s without a single friend, how sad because no one should have to go through that, I wouldn’t wish that on anyone because it’s beyond evil to wish absolute isolation on another human!

For me, I grew up having friends, losing them…meeting new people and making them my friends and somewhat keeping in touch with a couple of old ones, meeting others along away where we liked one another but would go as far as to say we were good friends but we would always be polite to one another which was good enough for me, it was enough.

How do I feel after 25 years on this planet? I will say satisfied because I have had quite a few adventures that as a child could only dream of! Being told you won’t achieve anything in life makes you do stuff like that…dream! But regarding friends, I have done just fine….I have made many and occasionally, we all have a meet up and have great times which I cherish and I meet others every now and then as well but I wouldn’t say I do stuff like that day in and out and that’s either because I have something on or I’m to nervous to do stuff like that, I can only take so much at once before feeling overloaded and needing to calm down…preventing a meltdown!

Time to get jiggy with it all really people! Life isn’t all one big disappointment when it comes to making friends, even though I’m sure some of you think it’s a messy situation that seems impossible and I understand that as I have thought like that so many times, in fact I prefer my won company sometimes…only sometimes because theirs no pressure and I can unwind and do things that I enjoy without someone telling me that I can’t or doing it a different way to how I normally would. Even if it can feel that way sometimes, feeling alone…I realized that maybe, I should a bit more effort into what I do when it comes to stuff like that…I can’t complain about feeling isolated and alone if I don’t at least try and make more of an effort to socialise because it feels like it’s been a while since I properly did that and now I sometimes feel alone because of that?

I am going to make it my mission to put more effort into all of this because I want to feel that I really gave it a go before coming up to conclusions because I feel like I’m just having a whinge otherwise for the sake of it and I don’t want to do that unless I have a valid reason for it so I will make it a mission to meet people and communicate more and more whether it be online or in person because for the last year, I have been learning to live with my fiance and be in charge of my own destiny, to prove to myself that I can go out and meet more people in this world because I felt like I had met enough a few years ago! However, I feel like I’ve gone out of touch and slightly retreated back into that old shell of mine and seem afraid to leave it again which isn’t good because I don’t want to feel like I can’t do this or that because I know that I can! We all can, we just have to believe that out of 7 billion humans on this planet, we can make friends with at least one of them!

I always try to be polite and friendly with everyone, that’s just how I am…although I can be slightly hesitant to people I don’t know at first and it takes me time to trust people due to the past…easier said than done for letting it go! There are always chances to meet people make friends, whether it be online or in person, you just have to really want it and to always keep trying, no matter how many times you get knocked down because if it was easy, would it be worth it? Would you cherish it or just take it for granted?

I cherish my friendships because I spent so long working on them and learning to trust them and I still do years later, I’ve been on holiday with some and some are going to be at my wedding! That’s not bad if you ask me.