For What Autism Isn’t

Is it me, the writer or all I ever seem to hear nowadays is what Autism is, how it has an impact on your daily life and what it can prevent someone like me from doing like everyone else? It really feels like that every single day and after a while, it starts to get really old! I mean seriously old that it’s getting boring now…all the stereotypes of being anti-social and good at maths…I’ll have you know I’m great at making friends and terrible at maths!

This is what the dictionary defines Autism as

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  1. a mental condition, present from early childhood, characterized by great difficulty in communicating and forming relationships with other people and in using language and abstract concepts.

Autism isn’t a disease…it’s not an epidemic or a crisis in any way, shape or form but if you ever read a news article about how most school shootings seems to have something to do with Autism or how children are locked up in cages or beaten by teachers, parents, carers etc you certainly might think so! Very rare cases indeed but enough to open your eyes to the fact that some people on this planet treat people with Autism like they used to in Bedlam!

For me, I struggle to understand jokes, facial expressions and sometimes feel nervous when I meet friends…better lock me away in that mental asylum because I’m a threat to society for being shy and struggle to tell if someones upset sometimes, I’m such a monster! What is it about that where so many people think it’s an epedemic…because they are scared that their children won’t make friends, ever move out or get a decent job in this world…well you can’t exactly get rid of Autism so instead of spreading hate throughout this world, try to be reasonable, understanding and make the most out of the situation, because it isn’t impossible to have some sort of happy ending out of all of this, no matter how severe they have Autism…nothing is impossible with a bit of paitence, understanding, and acceptance…what do you think blind people, deaf people, people in wheelchairs or all of the above do? Just give up and do nothing?

It begs the question, why do people view Autism in such a negative manner in this world? I just don’t get it…even Autism Speaks, which apparently supports people with Autism made that horrible video about how Autism was corrupting America’s children! Autism isn’t a physical form that prevents someone from

  • Being Independent
  • Having a Job
  • Having Friends
  • Having a Family Of Their Own
  • Anything Really!

Ok, so maybe in some cases, someone with Autism might struggle to be independent and live by themselves or with a partner, I won’t go overboard but it’s not anything that requires bubble wrap, being locked up in a cage, beaten by a carer on a school bus or hit in the back of the head with a plank of wood with a nail in it! I once read a story where some parents abandoned their autistic son on the side of a highway! Madness and yes, the majority of these happen in (America) Like everything in this world! I’ve never heard of that much negativity towards Autism in Britain or anywhere else for that matter!

No offense America but as the most powerful nation on this planet, your actions and how you deal with certain issues can have a bit of an impact on the rest of us! It’d be nice to not horrible news reports about people with Autism being locked in cages by nutjobs who can’t cope or just don’t care… a bit hard to ask with the huge population you have, every nation has horrible people in it…wishful thinking that every time something involving Autism ever reaches the news, that it won’t be negative I guess…Autism is not a disease or anything to be afraid of…it just needs to be understood a little bit more!

 

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Does Autism Define You?

Does it define you? Your Autism…does it shape your entire life every step of the way? Being social…is that a struggle, having a job? Trying something new…is that a struggle…sensory overload or is it all a breeze?

A life where you are told what someone with Autism can and more than likely, cannot do! The number of times people become amazed when they discover I have friends is getting beyond ridiculous now! I have gone from having 0 friends in my teen years to have a good number of friends in adulthood so it’s not like I have always had friends, the stereotypical mould once fitted my life perfectly once!

Knowing about Autism for about 14 years, it’s been a struggle to get over certain urges to avoid social interaction…doing activities in more than one way and not stressing over everything! Comfort zones exist for a reason because they make us feel safe! Who doesn’t want to feel safe and happy? Yet at the same time, when it comes to seeing friends, you don’t want to miss out but what if it’s too much for you sometimes? It happens…seeing friends every day is a huge challenge for me as somedays…I just can’t be bothered so I’ll make up my excuses and stay home! It’s nothing personal but if my mind convinces me that if I go out, I’ll have a meltdown…I chose to stay home because it’s safer for me on that given day!

First off, socializing is very tiring for me and this is obviously because it involves not always doing the things that you like to do…that and you often go into places full of people and that can be very scary for me! University was quite tough in a sense because of that, yet I survived and didn’t have my confidence get shot along the way because I was happy that I at least tried to make new friends but I always had friends back home and my girlfriend who came to visit me often!

Being happy with the friends in my life, I have become grateful for what I have and happy that I do not fit that bloody mould that others have set for people with Autism…that we just don’t have friends! I have even been accused of faking Autism…because I have friends! Some people really think that someone with Autism can’t have friends…because they are known to struggle socially!

Eye contact, not a huge fan of it, intimidating really! it’s alright but not for long…many people get confused as to why I can’t look at them for long and think it’s rude to look away…I do try! Things can be awkward when it’s questioned because not everyone believes me when I try to explain why I find it hard…apparently, you can’t have fears or struggles without receiving a million questions about it!

Not always thinking before I say or do something…that one pops its ugly head upon rare occasions…the amount of time someone has called me cold because of what I’ve said during an arguement…well forgive me for using what I know will hurt you! When you’re angry, you sometimes can’t help but want to upset the other person…thinking it’ll cheer you up but most of the time, it won’t do…it just makes things worse…something I often find out once I’ve calmed down!

Double checking everything is a thing I always do a lot as well! When going out, I’ll double check I have everything, that I have enough time to get there in time…whether I’ll be talkative or not…even whether I’ll go or make an excuse for not going…I once went to Japan for 2 weeks but ran back home before we got a train to the airport because I thought I’d left a music box on in the living room! I convinced myself that it’d be bad to leave it alone for a fortnight…it was off!

Routines are something quite common in my life, I need to do things in a certain way or I just don’t want to do it! the number of times that I have attempted to do an activity differently but every time I feel irritated or uncomfortable and can’t continue and it’s hard for me to ever understand why this is but I don’t argue with it because doing the same thing never gets old for me…pepperoni pizza never gets old for me, I don’t need to add more meat on there!

However, I can do things in a different order…like have breakfast before getting changed for the day…most of the time I have my breakfast after getting changed but some mornings I switch it up, not on purpose but it doesn’t ruin the rest of my day, although I have heard that some people have to do everything in the same order every day…not sure that I could because I’d be too stressed to do it all in the same order every day and if I made an error, I’d go crazy! A sensory overload and I’d begin to over think it all, becoming somewhat obsessive!

I have a job and I quite often need to do different activities so I can’t always do things in the same order! Things can get tough a little when I do things differently simply because I become uncomfortable, however…development over time has helped me realise that it isn’t the end of the world when this happens, new things can be a wonderful experience and it’s amazing how I can question why I never tried some new things a long time ago!

Does Autism define me? No…it’s stressful sure but many other things are as well, my autism is just a little extra on the side that pops up from time to time to remind me it’s there! Once it did defy my life because that’s all that mattered in my day-to-day life but nowadays, it’s an afterthought…when you forget you even have Autism, it has to be! Everything listed above is annoying but not life changing…some days I’m just tired, that’s not always down to my Autism though…the only thing I associate to what I have today is my sense of worrying too much when I really don’t need to anymore!

Why I Didn’t ‘Enjoy’ University

University, a life goal that many strive to complete right? A way of passage into that money-making job where you’ll fulfil those lifelong dreams of yours and be able to afford all the nice things in life, correct?

However, I’m not quite sure it actually is because from what I can remember from it was drinking, sex, debt, annoying flatmates, mouldy kitchens, many fire alarms going off over burnt toast and the many people dropping out of the course in the first year! Doesn’t scream best years of my life completely…screams soap drama where you end up with less baggage after you finish than what you started with!

Don’t get me wrong, University was fun, a lot of fun in fact! I learned a lot about myself as a person during my 3 years and feel like I changed as a human being for the better but what did I have to go through in order to get it?

I’m 27 years old, autistic and married…it’s been a few years since I graduated and I just work a standard part-time job at the moment with the dream of becoming an author. Just for the record, I got a 2:1 degree and worked hard to obtain it, I was even awarded the Overall Achievement award in my department which hangs proudly in my hallway to this day.

First thing, I don’t want people to assume that because I have Autism, that it’s because of it that I didn’t enjoy university! What I have had very little to do with it! University was a huge experience of my life, one I enjoyed but if I had the choice, I would go back and change my mind!

Just to note that this isn’t a blog trying to convince you to not go to University, just don’t go diving in head first without really thinking about it…Is it what you really want? It’s a huge decision in your life…one that could change it for the better or the worst.

Or if you have already been to University and have all those fond memories of it, I included because I have memories I’ll never forget as well but ask yourself this…was University everything that you had thought it would be? Have a think about it for a moment because as I look back on my 3 years, I start to think that my time hadn’t been anywhere near what I hoped it would have been and it made me feel a little bit sad.

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Now, my first question is for anyone who has been to University, what did you get out of University apart from a lot of debt, a piece of paper saying ‘well done’ and a picture of you in wearing a square hat? For me, all of these things were true but don’t get me wrong, I did all of the stereotypical things expected of a uni student! Clubbing, making friends, joining societies, wasting my student finance, so why am I writing a blog a few years later saying that University is actually quite overrated?!

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Maybe your time was well spent and you have no regrets, perhaps you got that job you were aiming for and have settled your debt already and maybe, just maybe you still keep in contact with all of you friends that you made during your time there…if so then congratulations, you lived a fantastic life as a uni student and you have my deepest praise.

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As a child, I remember hearing from all corners that going to University was the dream, the way towards a successful life, you’ll make it in this world if you get a degree! If you didn’t, you’d just end up in some meaningless line of work and earn a minimum wage and never be happy!

The halls of residence were full of first years and some 2nd years students and all were there to experience that first year where you only need 40% to pass it, simple right? It’s no wonder that so many spend that time relaxing and going out to clubs for cheap booze, so many offers for students, it was unbelievable the number of coupons I would have pilled up on my window sill.

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Making friends was pretty tricky for me and yes, my autism comes into play a little bit here because I am someone who can’t just dive right in and try to befriend everyone around me, my flatmates were friendly enough and I did plenty of things with them but for everyone else, I felt like I wasn’t that interesting to them and felt quite lonely a lot of the time.

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Sometimes, it felt like I was the only person not enjoying themselves…seeing Facebook pictures of people having a good time, it stung a little bit and although I had done that myself, it didn’t feel all that genuine…It was like I was just there in the background, not because I was always wanted there. Now, I know that isn’t entirely true because if people didn’t want me there, I wouldn’t be asked to go out in the first place and my flatmates included me a lot which I always appreciated but it still didn’t stop me wanting to quit.

After a month, I remember certain people dropping out of their courses because it just wasn’t for them and that was worrying because so many people reach a point where they can’t carry on anymore!  I nearly walked as well but my partner who visited me on weekends convinced me to stay and I’ll be honest here, the first time she went back home, I cried and begged her to stay because…I didn’t want to be alone.

Now I made friends but in the beginning, everyone was so forward and friendly that it somewhat put me off because of my nerves, it takes me time to get used to new people but here, groups are sorted within the first few weeks and it can be hard to get into afterwards so if your not quick with making friends, this might not be for you because a lot of pressure was something that I felt and I only just had about enough to hang on and not go home!

What annoyed me the most was how before I came to my university, was just how much I would love it! I’ll make all kinds of friends and be set for life with a really good job because that’s the only way to get one, right?

It’s true that University offers all kind of opportunities for a person to experience new things and meet new people but what if none of those things happens? Nowhere does it guarantee you that you will make new friends or gain anything out of university, for all you know…you could just be sat in your dorm room all day, alone and depressed because it wasn’t what you thought it would be…I mean you don’t know the type of people you’ll be living within your first year, that’s why most people choose who they live within the 2nd year…that is if you make any friends in the first place!

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As the months roll on, I often found my class shortening and only having a couple of them a week, especially in the 2nd and 3rd years as we had big projects to complete and what not but it meant plenty of free time which for me was a lot of time just staying in my room and being alone, so I did my work like we were supposed to be doing but a part of me felt bad for not socialising that much, maybe it was my fault for not trying hard enough, was something I often convinced myself off.

With a lack of many friends, I decided to remain in halls for my 2nd and 3rd years and the amount of times I regretted it was unfathomable as all I got were a group of guys who would get drunk every night and never be quiet and a decent group but two of them got together as a couple and acted as if they ran the place…it was hell, to say the least, and I was glad when I graduated and moved in with my girlfriend…now my wife.

I came to a conclusion that it was a multiple of things that made me feel unhappy about my time at University, whether it was not making as many friends as I did, the lack of opportunities I thought I would have, missing family and friends back home, the bad flatmates in my 2nd and 3rd years or that I didn’t try hard enough to make those lifelong friends.

University is always made to sound amazing, a life-changing experience that you won’t regret and in a way…it’s true, despite my negatives about the whole ordeal, I have many positives as well but the truth is that many people won’t be able to handle it, the fast paced lifestyle you go through, the noise, smell and sound you go through on a daily basis when you have many others living around you…even in your 2nd and 3rd years, you might fall out with people…nothing is guaranteed in this romantasised action of being a student and living in a city or in some cases, another country.

I said earlier that I would stop myself from going to university if I had the chance, yet at the same time…I wouldn’t because I answered a lot of questions about myself by going so I don’t regret that at all…my time was fun, hard work and I went through a lot but fun none the less! I just wish I had considered other options like the open university or an apprenticeship instead or even doing a little bit of travelling with my girlfriend, the university felt like the only option at the time however and because of my autism, I spent most of my life trying to prove everyone wrong, that I was capable of doing what anyone else could if I tried my best…still, to this day I’m unsure if that was a major factor in going to university.

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If I had one regret, it would be constantly comparing my time to others because seeing those pictures of people having fun, it made me feel bad about myself and put self-doubt onto me! A picture here or there doesn’t tell the entire story, behind a smile can linger sadness…more people than you realise aren’t having as good of a time at university as you think…the perfect lifestyle portrayed in the media isn’t as it says it is, many people struggle with the lifestyle and drop out once they realise.

Truth is, we have other ways of getting to a decent line of work, the university one is an expensive route that can lead you to it or you can spend all of that money and be left with nothing! Nothing is guaranteed so I’ll say it again…really think about it before you go because you have other options, an apprenticeship…do some travelling…do a course from home! Yet if you want to go to University and go through all of that, by all means, go for it! I won’t discourage you from it if anything I do recommend it but at least put a lot of thought into it! Many don’t and end up dropping out once they discover that they can’t cope or it’s the wrong time!

Funny thing is, in my 1st year of Uni…I entered a writing competition and wrote about my time and how I was really struggling to cope, all of the feelings I went through and it ended up in a book with other short stories so that was cool! If anything, it made me feel better and confident in myself once more, that I wasn’t wasting my time…I mean I got my degree, an award and technically, had a story published…not shabby if you ask me.

 

 

Why So Angry Autism?

What do people do when they get upset about something? Getting angry…it happens to us all but some are better than others at dealing with it and when it comes to Autism, getting angry leads to having a meltdown…which I think we can all relate to.

Anger…tends to be something that is always linked to Autism nowadays, ”People with Autism have short fuses” and whenever I get wound up by something or someone, the emotion I tend to always express is anger! Every time someone says something to me that I don’t agree with, I’ll get angry and it’s gotten to the point now that I’m questioning why this is so. Everyone gets angry, that much is obvious…many people with Autism are calm individuals who don’t struggle with emotions whatsoever, yet you look it up on Google and find a whole range of topics relating to the two.

(All these links do not belong to me, nor do I claim them to be so, just used for research purposes) 

Why so angry all of the time? It’s weird because I don’t consider myself to be an individual who can easily lose his cool, yet when a situation arises such as someone disagreeing with me for example, chances are I’ll get annoyed by it and lose my cool a little bit and I can spend a couple of hours feeling down about it all and it really annoys me that I allow this to happen quite often. I don’t always understand my feelings or emotions but one that I could have a bit of understanding about would be Anger…easily because a lot of my life, I have been angry over many things and it just becomes easy if you do it often.

In my childhood, I can recall breaking things when I was mad, from lights, wardrobes to beds and for a long time, I couldn’t understand that what I was doing was wrong and even today, sometimes it doesn’t come to me straight away if I’m upset about something, I’ll be furious about something but over time it’ll ease off and I’ll return to normal, regretting my actions and words along the way…emotions are hard for me to always grasp and at times…I guess I don’t always feel human because of that and that’s because when I go into that place, it’s like all compassion and cares disappears for me for a little bit…it’ll always come back but I really do feel invincible for a while and I hate that feeling because depending on the situation at hand, I might feel a little bit too angry or sad and for others, that’s not good. Not that I would ever do anything but I feel like I would and I hope that I never do if someone pushes me too far one day.

Well, I just made myself sound unstable when going into a meltdown but it’s a strange feeling that makes you feel like you can take on anything or anyone and even though you probably can’t, the feeling doesn’t go away straight away! Your anger takes over and you just don’t care what happens…not something I look forward to but it happens from time to time and it’s something I’d like to get under control…I wonder how other people with Autism deal with meltdowns? I have a friend who tends to lock himself away if he’s stressed if socialising gets too much for him and at times, I can go 3 weeks without hearing anything from him, to the point where he only wants to meet up on some weekends as he gets too tired from his job on weekdays, which I understand but with the rest of my friends busy on a lot of weekends, it makes it very hard for us all to meet up.

We all deal with our emotions in different ways and I really envy those that can control anger in moments of stress and carry on…I feel like I’m better at it than when I was a teen but would prefer to be a little more controlling of it, especially at work or around friends and family but at least I don’t need to step outside and calm down anymore, I needed to do that all the time years ago and it got really annoying because I just couldn’t cope. That makes me worry about my friend who isolates himself away after a meltdown because even spending time with family is too much for the poor lad and he lives by himself, not the best formula for dealing with your Aspergers in my opinion.

Do you think that this is common amongst the Autistic community, do we really have short tempers and tend to lose our cools often? I’m not so sure it counts for everyone within the community but I know some people with Autism and they also tend to get a little ticked off without much effort! I know that a common phrase for this would be a “Meltdown” where you just shut down completely and go into rage mode but I don’t mean having a meltdown in this sense…you can get angry and not have a meltdown…also everyone gets angry, with or without Autism so why is it associated with Autism so much? Lack of understanding…who knows?

Are Some People Ashamed Of Autism?

Warning- This might be upsetting to some people, so if you’re easily offended or queasy then click off this blog!

Have you ever had to question human beings before? Like, the amount of idiots that are on this planet are more than I am comfortable with and when I say idiots, I don’t mean anyone with mental health issues or anything like that but say…someone who films a dead body in a Japanese forest or say…want to chop their sons head off because he has Autism…you know, that kind of stuff! I like to think that we can all be bright and vibrant people who can make this world a better place, then on some days, you come across stories like this and question humanity as a whole!

In the Miami Herald– Click on the blue highlighted words for the article! It has been reported that a mother apparently tried to chop off her son’s head…why would someone attempt something so evil on their own son? Because of his Autism…that’s right, she was afraid he would be a burden, so of course, trying to kill them…that and he apparently was playing video games instead of doing his homework! Curse Autism making play games! (Sarcasm) is the best course of action! (Heavy sarcasm!) I won’t name her on anyone on here, you can click the link and find out for yourselves but the question here is…are people afraid of Autism? Or should it be, are people ashamed of it? Some struggle to cope taking care of someone with Autism…I mean I know my parents struggled with me but I’m still here! I mean why else would you consider murdering your children unless you are ashamed of them for apparently being ‘burdens’…if anything, the mother is a burden on society because she tried to kill a child! Just because he had Autism…makes no sense otherwise, unless your unstable and have no business having children!

In the article, it goes on to explain a bit in detail how she began to saw down on her son’s neck but he was able to get away and grab the saw…not that much of a burden if he can defend himself! This line was my favourite in the whole article…

”Her attorney told FOX 5 that his client didn’t intend to harm the child”- Miami Herald

So the saw was meant to be a nice neck massage right? Last time I checked, sawing a neck with a bow saw is going to be excruciating! You ain’t fooling anyone with that! The article goes on to say that many other parents have been caught neglecting mentally disabled children and even adults with one set of parents just abandoning their son on the side of the road…not wanting him anymore! and another was caught locking their autistic child in an unfinished basement…thats without a toilet or a sink…WTF?! Tantrums being the main cause of it…I’m sensing a theme of parents unable to cope with looking after a child or adult with Autism…so torturing them, locking them away or even killing them is the solution…ASK FOR HELP! You’re telling me a country with 325.7 million people in it and you can’t find at least 1 person who can assist you?! That’s your child…you can’t love them that much if you want them to suffer or even die!

True, we have people in this world that are ashamed of Autism COUGH Autism Speaks COUGH but so many more that are fantastic parents that go through hell but with every bad day, comes a good day…it’s not easy looking after someone with Autism but it’s so rewarding when you see them doing well for themselves someday and 99.99% never resort to locking them away or trying to kill them! Wow, what is the secret? Being decent human beings I guess!

I have Autism and my parents didn’t try to kill me! I had tantrums and needed much attention, doing fine in 2018! No excuses for any parent to try and kill their children, I don’t give a monkey if you can’t cope! Murder is still murder… If you can even consider killing your child as an option…something is really wrong with you…there is no, ”oh but he has severe Autism” I don’t care…you couldn’t give me a single excuse in the world that makes killing someone for having a disability ok…If you can’t cope, get help…surely someone is trained in that profession to offer assistance in some shape or form…Many people struggle to cope having someone with Autism and that’s sad… No excuses in this article…please keep this person away from this child…for his safety and the rest of the world!

Is It That Time Again?

22/03/18 

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It’s nearly April…hurray because anyone with Autism knows exactly what that means…World Autism Awareness Day and Awareness month and such, this comes around as quickly as Christmas does! Everyone boycotts the colour Blue and we all moan and groan about the group known as Autism Speaks….or as I see it as Auti$m $peaks and for me, it’s a strange time.  I don’t live in America so for most of my life, I didn’t know it existed, yet in America, this stupid group acts like they are raising money for Autism, where they are really looking to eradicate it because they view it as a nuisance and a disease on the world.

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I love the colour blue and it infuriates me that this group uses it in its propaganda campaign and I will still use Blue in April but it will have nothing to do with this group at all! They never get a penny from me nor will they ever because I have Autism and I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished in my life and in a way, my Autism has actually helped me overcome many obstacles because it has made me try so much harder to get over the finish lines of life…how dare a group like this that calls themselves Autism Speaks act like they represent everyone with Autism when no one with Autism is in their organization!  from what I’ve read and watched is that they hate people with Autism and see them as disease-ridden, wanting to rid the earth of it, like we’re the walking dead or something!

Next up is this thing!

 

 

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It’s blue because, for a long time, it was thought only boys could get Autism?

 

 

A puzzle piece, why do we see it all over the place when you talk about Autism? Because we are puzzles apparently…needed to be solved because we cause such a strain on the world because we’re all so anti-social and struggle in daily society, where some of us can’t function properly and have to have care every day…We are all bundled in as the same by this group and if you’ve seen that infamous video they produced which I think can still be found on the internet, you’ll know how they really feel about us so I fully understand why so many people with Autism can’t stand this idiotic group. Not to mention that the piece is blue because it was widely accepted by this group that only boys could be Autistic but as well all know today in 2018 that many girls are also Autistic…I don’t see light it up pink anywhere!

I seriously question Autism Speaks intelligence…like really, are they stupid? Does one member of that board have an actual brain? Are they time travellers from the Middle Ages because they sound like witch doctors…I’m surprised that leeches haven’t been suggested as a cure for Autism yet…we’ve had this stuff already!

 

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Bleach…really?! Surely no one is dumb enough to think that’s clever…the only thing this will do is send you to your grave! BTW I found the Autism Speaks video! Amazed it’s still up actually! Click the link and see for yourself! The most ironic thing about this whole ordeal is the name Autism Speaks…no one in that group is Autistic and they pretty much despise the whole thing so them speaking for us is one massive joke! They sound like a cult, they actually sound like a cult dedicated to tricking the world into making people with Autism be despised by all! It’s sickening but beyond all, in my mind…it’s very stupid…I generally think every member of Autism Speaks is unintelligent and very unrespectable, yet they think their smart and will be successful but the funny thing I find in all of this is that they will fail! Of course, they will fail because Autism can’t be cured…it’s not a disease! It’s nothing to be ashamed of!

 

This group will never represent me and I don’t care what propaganda they come up with in the future because I know one day, they will close their doors and cease to exist…all groups like this eventually do! They’re a bunch of stubborn people who don’t even understand what Autism is…their like a citizen in the 1600’s that thinks every old woman is a witch and tries to have them be burned…it all fades out eventually because the world evolves and they will be left behind in the past because they are not intelligent enough to move on with the times, that or they are really stubborn and refuse to listen to common sense…mostly because they won’t make money anymore!

I mean look at people with vaccinations, they hear that it could make their child Autistic and refuse to have them be treated so now other diseases that those vaccinations prevented are returning in some areas…a group like this feeds of fear of those that believe everything they read and see because we don’t all ask questions anymore, we don’t do enough research, we just believe the first thing we see or hear and go with that and that’s amassive issue in my eyes because a lot of gullable people exist on this planet!

So this month, don’t fund this cult that will do nothing towards making the life of Autistic better, they won’t help others understand what Autism is, how can they when they don’t understand themselves? All they will do is fund their marketing even more and make you think Autism is something to fear, not understand that it isn’t as bad as they will tell you…we have many things to fear in this world, Autism isn’t one of them!

My Aspergers And Me

Everyone likes to make a huge deal about Aspergers, Autism etc like it’s this life-changing disease or something that should be feared…I mean when you hear about people not vaccinating their children because they think it will make them Autistic is quite frightening to have and sends a message out to the world that you do not want to have your child be Autistic! It’s hard to not feel a little down because of that because I have felt shame for what I have and that was because of a lack of understanding! To hear of people coming up with ‘cure’ ideas that involve bleach is even worse!

For me, my Aspergers makes me nervous around me and it can be hard to make friends but you can have those issues and not have Autism in any shape or form…it doesn’t mean that anything is wrong with you, not at all…we all have issues and mountains to climb in life but why is it once something is given a label, like Autism…some people come out with the dumbest statements I’ve ever seen! Whether you have high Autism or mild like I do…Bleach or not having vaccinations, believing they are the cause of it all is just stupid! Idiotic…it’s 2018, not the 1500’s I thought the human race was meant to be more intelligent then our ancestors and most are…yet you get the odd nutcase who thinks bleaching the bloody brain is a good idea!

Understand this, many people on this planet treat Autism like it’s something to be ashamed of, that your children will get it and be doomed or something, the number of pages and posts all over the internet slamming it and making anyone with it look like the dumbest people in the world…because they hear Autism and assume that anyone who has it are losers with no friends or brains! I like to see the best in everyone…I don’t like confrontations or arguments, had enough of them already but I know they aren’t unavoidable and for a huge part of my childhood, if anyone made fun of me for what I had, I’d lose the plot…mostly because I didn’t want to be insulted for something that I had no sense of at the time…Autism had taken everything away from me, mostly because people around me pulled me out of big classes, made my friends abandon me and drained away every bit of confidence I ever had before hand…to see so many people look at what I have and fear it…it hurts.

I, for one, feel no shame for what I have, It doesn’t make me any less human than anyone else but then again…it’s always others that will say that to me, not me saying it myself…well not anymore but that’s only because I had time to myself to figure everything out about me and I realized that I’m just fine, nothing wrong with me that many others on this planet aren’t going through as well so why should I moan and groan and not just get on with things?! No one can even tell that I have Autism and if I never said anything, they probably never would! Why would I need to worry about anything when it comes to other people’s opinions when it comes to having Autism? I’ve been there when others look at me as the freak who doesn’t have friends, who are laughed at by everyone and made to feel so low and they loved every single second of it, to be told by medical professionals that I would never amount to anything because I had to learn everything from scratch…nothing came naturally to me and in some ways, it still stings today!

True that everyone with Autism is different and hence we all differ on how we live our lives with it…how we struggle with certain things and what not and everyone gets confused by this because they think we all act the same, friendless losers who prefer time to themselves and probably still live with their parents at the age of 35, because we apparently have no social skills! I yearn for a day where it can be more accepted that we are all unique, Autism doesn’t hold us all down so do not treat us all exactly the same…do some research, it makes you lazy in 2018 if you can’t just Google an answer at the very least! Unless you don’t have a phone or a computer…go to your local library and read a book, they still exist!

How many times does someone have to explain Autism to the world before it finally gets it? You don’t learn about it in school or anything so how does anyone really learn about it? How do we learn about any disabilities as a child? Maybe things have changed in the education systems worldwide but as far I can remember, I only found out about certain things by meeting people who had them, then I’d ask others about it and wouldn’t get much of an answer so as I got older, learnt more and more but at the same time, others could have found out in different ways and had a different understanding to what I do, hence a different opinion about it as well because whoever we learn from about these things, it’s all based on how they feel about it as well, so if a parent hates Autism and is asked about it by their child, what kind of answer do you think the child will get?

Maybe one day, I won’t have to read about bleach and Autism or bloody vaccinations already…one guy says something, gets proven wrong but people are certain that he was correct and refuse to listen?! Then again, you have people who think the planet’s round…you bloody tell me how Sir Francis Drake sailed around the entire globe then? Maybe Autism will just be a thing that can make some people a little anti-social, maybe it’s just something where we have to try a little harder than others to achieve something…some more than others and some will have Autism really badly, where some will have the tiniest amount but others will be accepting of it…as a species, we should be smart enough to accept all these disabilities and show a bit more compassion, rather than fear and disdain towards them! it’s 2018…why are we still struggling with disabilities, race, gender equality and wars still? You hear about us making robots and one day, they’ll be doing all the meaningless jobs etc and what not….why are we doing that when we have enough issues to sort out amongst ourselves?